Did you ever feel broken, but not exactly that? Feel sad, but you know you're okay? Or maybe upset, but it seems that you're relaxed in a way or two? Well, sorry to say that you're a weird person - NAAH. I guess it's just normal to have these "weird stuff" going in your mind - or probably in your heart? Needless to say, I'm a bit in this emotional crisis and my speculated reason for this is having to miss a person so badly. I know I can just text him and start a conversation, I possibly can, but the thing is - will he answer back? I guess not - mostly, probably, maybe? I really don't know. I would really like to thank my defense mechanisms for this because they sort of have a big help here, so here I am coming up with 5 Possible Reasons for Not Messaging a Person - not just a person though 'cause it's somebody you love (alright?):
- Pride. Definitely, we all have that to keep.
- Hesitation. Is there anything important to say? What will I get from him if I do text him? (You won't have a reason to miss him! - Yeah, right.)
- Fear. Your heart pounds when you see his number. You already typed hello, but you think it's not enough, and then for a while, you'll think it is because he might not reply and you just gave away too many words without any response - which all boils down to your pride again.
- Time. If you don't get any chance of staying idle for a while just to think about that person, I bet you have a busy and time-managed schedule there honey. I must agree, it's good for anyone. You're just too busy putting yourself together - or should I say building your pride up together?
- Love. Well, pride now doesn't have any say on this. Good thing. I believe that it will always end up to this reason - I suppose. This word can explain for itself.
Sorry for being too subjective about this. I might have generalized stuff, so I ask of your understanding. I've been too subjective with what I'm saying about things nowadays, maybe because it has been all about me. I need him now, frankly-speaking, because he's someone I can talk to about everything. It's hard to lose the one you treated as a best friend - especially if you're that person who doesn't consider that label much.
"You're the sun in my brightest days, at the same time, you're the rain in my gloomiest afternoons."
Maffay :/
"You're the sun in my brightest days, at the same time, you're the rain in my gloomiest afternoons."
Maffay :/
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